just had christmas party at work place yesterday. was a blast! unfortunately no group pics were taken. just for games. will post pics soon.

i organized the party for them since nobody else has the heart to do it. i mean i wanted the party anyways. at first i wanted it to be grand. lots of people. held in the house. FOOD! however, since the store was 24/7 open, it's unfair for some people who'll be on duty that day. furthermore, my uncle is in the hospital. must morn mah, so there's no way we can hold such a party.

it was good. christmas is always good here. you can here people talking about their upcoming christmas party, what gifts should they give or where should they go for holidays. christmas is so alive and exciting that each and every place has decorations set up flamboyantly since october. malls are packed. carols. plays. choirs. everything gets hyped up!

however, most fragile topic you can talk about is the price of one's christmas gift. it sickens me actually. good thing that it's a must to take out the price tag. i mean, why does everthing have to revolve around money. even christmas! i was shopping with a friend and she was so conscious about the price that we walked till the ends of the earth just to buy the 'right' gift not the 'perfect' gift. the perfect gift always comes from the heart. when she was wrapping the present, i told her to take out thr tag but didn't. she said it's crucial to leave it there so that the person won't think that she bought a cheap gift.

yet, some don't give a damn about their gift. since we were in a convinience store, they bought something from the store and gave it as a gift. didn't even bother to go out and actually shop for the person.

ya maybe some people care about the price beacuse the biggest sacrifice they could make is money. but we should not be overly conscious about it. isn't the thought that counts. i've heard that a thousand times yet few do practise. and christmas isn't about giving gifts either. every christmas, i don't look forward to the presents but the gathering and the celebration. that's the spirit of christmas.

home

my uncle has just gone to the operation room. he had a stroke recently and he's been hospitalized for nearly a month. so, my sched now a days is really restricted as we have to go to the hospital every night. hate the hospital. wasn't really going there every night. but can't go shopping and all because driver sends my aunt to hospital so we stuck in house. wish he gets well very soon. people miss him. can't imagine what will happen if he... blue christmas!

i'm enjoying my work so much. not that i like working. it's so bloody tiring and boring at the same time. just that i like my workmates. i love them sooo much. even though i'm new they are patient with me and always assist me. sometimes, i'm even short and they pay for it beacause it's their cash machine. of course feeling guilty so balanja them every time to make up for it. it's been a good week. but i'm really careful not to make mistakes. cause i know there's a calm before the storm. everytime something good happens, disaster will soon strike. omens. i beleive. i'm so scared right now that something bad will happen and they won't like me anymore. i'm cherishing each and every moment. now they keep on teasing me. you see my aunt owns the store. and she always comes by and treat me lunch. so they will go like "pa bili mo nalang kay aunty" or "ok lang yan, an dyan naman si aunty eh." and also beacuse my aunt's the owner they kind of treat me different. more respected. sigh. but i still love them.

feels so different than in singapore. those racist bastards. they will deny it but they are. it feels more at home here. i love it here. i don't want to go back to singapore

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so much fun